I have been unhappy at my job for some time now. Well, since I had to leave my baby and go back to work when she was 7 months old. It is more than just being away from Tink though. The work environment of my office changed while I was away.
Even though I have been unhappy I have stuck it out and stayed here because they are good about me bringing her in to the office or staying home with her when I need to.
Today I took the first step toward finding a new job. I sent out four resumes for positions at bigger companies. I am scared to death. I am scared they will call and I will have the chance to change jobs. At the same time I am scared they won't call and I will be stuck here in the job I am unhappy with.
If my current boss finds out I am looking for a new job he will give me a bad reference and then fire me on the spot. He's just spiteful like that. (One of the reasons I am unhappy here.) (Did I mention that he is a pig and sends me offensive emails all the time and is a racist to boot?)
Have I done the right thing? I know I need to get out of here. What am I going to do now? I am so worried right now.
I know that if I simply put this into God's hands the right thing will happen. So, here you go God. It's all up to you now.