Monday, October 12, 2009

The craziness inside my head.

The ovulation test kits, baby names web sites, reading what to expect when you are expecting, worrying about where the baby will sleep, will it have it's own room or will it share with Tink, will I have to kick the dogs out of their room and turn it into a nursery, what will I do with the dog crates, are we preggo now, will it be a boy or girl, why did I get rid of all our baby things, maybe this was a bad decision, maybe we should stick with the one child only rule, what if we are already preggo?
This has over taken my life.
Only in private, when no one is watching.
I don't want people to think I am crazy.
Why do I do these things?
Simply deciding that we want another baby has done this to me.
I can't stop.
I know it will only get worse.
Why, why, why do I obsess like this?

Friday, October 9, 2009

possible job news!

The house almost caught fire last night. It was Hubb's lack of supervision that allowed this to happen. It wasn't even Tink who needed the supervision, it was Maggie May. Luckliy I caught it before anything caught fire, but Hubbs is still in the dog house over this one.

I got a call today at work from one of my customers. She and I were talking a week or so ago about the recent events here at my office. Not that I have told all my clients about the situation, but after 6 years of being her insurance agent and talking to her on a regular basis regarding her business insurance, we have become friends. Today she called to say she is going to be looking for someone to run her office and wondered if I would be interested. Yes, yes I am. So, I gave her my salary requirements and she is going to discuss this with her husband and get back to me. My fingers are crossed!

No baby news yet. We are trying ;)

Thursday, October 8, 2009

I FINALLY found the camera cord!

This is Tink on the first day of school.Tink with Livy Bug at school.The second day of school.Guess who can write their own name?
This is Tink signing in at school.
And making a craft during class.

This kid LOVES soccer!
Here is Tink with Boo and baby A.Here comes Tink and Boo off the field.

The kid said what??

I am playing along with Cammie today over here Let's see. I ALWAYS have a ton of stuff that I plan to write for these posts, but don't write them down and later can't remember them.

"Mom, you have a big, red zit right there on your chin." Yeah, thanks Tink I had totally forgotten about it.

"Mom, the outfit you wore to Hayley's party the other day looked really beautiful." Awww. I guess that makes up for the zit reminder.

"My dog, Bo, is part lab and part sherman hepard." Almost right.

"Mom, where are my triblets?" Huh? "You know, my three brown stuffed newborn puppies that look alike." Ah, triplets.

Me: So Tink, do you think you would like Mommy and Daddy to have you a little brother or sister?
Tink: No!!
Me: Why not, I though you wanted a brother or sisiter.
Tink: Because, when I asked for one before you said no, so now I say NO!

I was trying on clothes the other day. Tink was watching.
Tink: Mom, what size are those pants?
Me: Small
Tink: Do they fit you?
Me: Not really well.
Tink: What size do you wear?
Me: Medium.
Tink: Do you mean a really big medium?
Me: Um, yeah.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

We are going for it.

I won't go into the details. No one wants to know about that, but we are now officially trying for baby number 2. It took 3 years for us to get prego with Tink, so this may take a while.

You, my bloggy friends are the only people who know about this decision. That makes you all pretty special. I'll be sure to tell you all first if (I mean when) we are preggo. Well, after Hubbs and Tink that is.

Monday, October 5, 2009

Same old crap and something new.

I'm still here. Same old job. Still looking for something new.

While talking to Hubbs last night we figured out we have both been rethinking our "one child only" policy. Fine time to rethink this policy. I've just sold or given away the last of the baby items. We still have the play yard and the stroller. Guess that's better than nothing. Now we just need to decide if we are really going to try of another one or not. My mind keeps saying no, but me heart is saying yes. What to do? What to do!?

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Still here.

As for now I am still at my old office. I have not yet been replaced.

I have been sending out resumes.

I feel sick every morning when I have to get up to come here. I feel hurt and betrayed by my office manager and my boss. They can't seem to figure out why I am not talkative and seem upset. Hmmm. Maybe because you are replacing me??!!

I have started to clean out my desk and have taken down my one of a kind artwork (all made by Tink.) I think this made people nervous around here. The boss's wife called me after work to see if I was mad and to see if we could figure out an alternative solution for Tink so I could work full time. "No, sorry. Tink is not going to daycare. I am not taking her out of dance and soccer. You all agreed to my hour switch and I am sticking to it. If you feel like you need to find my replacement go ahead. I can start looking for a new job."

I heard today that they are now looking for a high school student who can come in the afternoons and just answer the phones when I am not here.

I am pretty sure they thought that if they dropped the replacement news on me I would say I would work full time and now that I have stood up and refused to do that they are rethinking the situation.

Irregardless of what happens here I am still looking for something else. There has to be something better out there.